I think about dying almost every night...?

been through that. it is not a joke. how did i not kill myself or even tried, i have no clue. i would cry every night.. and every night i would think about doing it... i felt like i wasn't important in anyone's life and that there was no reason to be here.. i felt lost... i would even see weird things... i started to think i was going crazy... but now that i look back i understand it was depression... just thinking about it makes me feel terrible.. because before that i was a very happy girl and believed life was the most precious thing and it really is... please seek help. i started to go to church and my life changed... when i started going i went because i really felt like that was going to be my last option... there is a God who wants to help you and it hurts him to see you like this.. believe and have a little faith.. he will do the rest... it can also be hereditary.. 'clinical depression' chemical imbalance... who knows.. just seek help.. asap.